love lockdown

my tatoo is definitley a representation of my love life. Either I build a wall to prevent it or it runs from me. I truly did swallow the key. 2008 has been the worst year i can imagine. I made a ton of mistakes, learned from them and am also paying for them. My demeaner is hardening once again. I notice everyone i know is fixated on something, it takes over there life,while i find myself more fixated on my prorities. I've figured the people that were closest to me werent who i thought they were. You grow up looking up to certain people, looking at them for all the answers and in the end you end up realizing they don't have a clue themselves. no one does.

Someone who i thought would never do me any harm proved me wrong last night.
I'm hurt physically and mentally. 2008 has been the year of pain for me and almost every man i respected at least once in my life has done a 180. It's crazy.

anywho..enough of the misery. I've gained a liking to the Twilight series books by Stephenie Meyer. I read Twilight awhile back and didnt' know she had 3 more. Last week I finished New Moon and now im on Eclipse. Vampire type shit, very interesting. There is also a movie coming out soon so the books are highly recommended.







I started school again, I need a degree in something already so that's my main focus.
I've also found out my mother has breast cancer. I can't believe the turn of events my life has lead to but as everything else I should bounce back from this and so should my mother. 2009 please be good to me and everyone else going through it.